Perfectionist

Have been trying very hard to be a perfectionist.
Trying to be a perfect daughter, a perfect sister and a perfect dog owner.
I agree that those are important but I have not try to be a perfect girlfriend.
Putting everyone before Bear, giving more and more disappointments.
Thinking of what I've done for him though it might be insignificant, loads of effort is put into the things that I did.
Did he realise that?
Many a times, I choose to keep mum as not to pick a fight but as time goes by it snowballed into loads of problems and the flame in me blast into a fire.
Did Bear try to dig all this hidden truth?
Have we even communicated in that sense?
I've got all the surprises planned and now I think they'll be put aside.