Shanghai III

over the weekends, we have had cleaned the fridge up and guess what i've found??
rotten chunks of meat and squid.
omg!!
they stink the whole fridge up alright.
seriously, the cleaning they do is really superficial.
they only cleaned areas whereby eyes can see and ignored those that can be hidden behind doors.
and i was told to TRUST them, trust the photos i see.
and i conclude that, this is so much TRUST i should have.

next, i had lunch and i found a DAMN BIG worm lah.
i almost puked can.
why on earth am i here?
pls let me know.

next, i dun think i like my job that much already.
no matter how much i know, how much i do, i still wouldnt be in anyways 'shinning'
in this case, why should i stay?
i believe i will be able to look for a better job out there.
i totally envy those people who love their job loads.
sigh.

work rants

seriously, i am really sick and tired of my job.
its like there is so much work to do and everyone in the office just seems to push it to my function.
i am starting to dread everything that i am doing because i am totally sandwiched in the middle.
one, my team in DHL is not even truthful to start of with.
we are paying them for 5 headcounts but only 4 headcount is working.
it is like so WTF right?!
the worst thing is that when i start to question them on this, they went like, she is still around, still working.
next, there is a process change and no one is being informed on the change.
now everyone is trying to push this away from there ownership and who gets the workload??
its me in the end.
its totally fucked up!!

Family

Mum fell ill last week and I realised that she has no one who is willing to take care of her. Though mum is already an adult, I still think that someone in the family should take care of her. Have you forgotten about the care and love that Mum showered you when you were sick? Now, she is sick but none of you are there to take care of her, show her that little bit of concern. I am totally disappointed. She raised you up and provided everything that you need but in return she's being treated like this.

How will the family be like if I were to leave for a year? Seriously, the condition of everything will have to be determined by how much effort you are willing to put in.

MALIGNED

WHAT THE FUCK!!
Had a phone call early in the morning accusing me for what I have not done.
What a great start to the day!!
I have known you for a long period of time and I know what HONESTY means to you.
You on your end pointing fingers at me for no reason and expecting me to take something that I hadn't.
DEEM as you like!!
When I was with ya, I would have taken the blame for whatever even if I'm accused for something that I hadn't
But NOW, I'm myself and I have to stand by my name and I can totally prove that I'm CLEAR!!
Anyway, whatever...
To believe or not it's up to you..
I HAVE A CLEAR CONSCIENCE.
ACCUSE ALL YOU WANT!
NOW, I'M TELLING YOU I CANT BE BOTHERED!!

Work Rants!!

I'm so caught in the middle as I am to spare a thought for my boss and Ops.

My Ops have been hiding things from me, not sharing until the very last minute. In a way, I can feel the strain. I totally understand the fact that you guys will not want to have extra work in your workload but am I not trying? Do not instruct me with what you think I should be doing for you.

On the other hand, I would think that supporting to my boss's request is reasonable. It does not kill to do a little extra. In any case, we should give and take instead of rejecting everything. bah~

WORK IS SO SO SO SUCKY!! I WANT A CHANGE OF JOB!!

Boo~

How I behave in a relationship is how much you mean to me.
Do not tell me what I can do, what I can't.
Do not restrict me when I have already laid my R&R that clear.
I think I am just not ready for one.. =p

Gloomy Weekend

It's Tuesday and I'm thinking back on what happened over the weekends.
The only word I can use was HORRENDOUS!!

First, Zeng Yuan organised KTV and didn't turn up leaving me and Yong Jie thinking that he'll be reaching hour after hour. The worst part was that when we ended everything, he didnt want to pick up our call!! Totally pissed, didnt wanna talk to him at all thou he asked for another KTV session. My point was that he should learn from it as we made time for him and he did this to us. Not going to delicate time just because he wants it that way. LOl. Yes.. I may be petty but he ought to learn that not everyone is so free for him to be played out.

Next, Lala didnt something really wrong and instead of feeling sorry for her actions, she got really defensive. sigh. My this sista really have a mind of her own and can be really stubborn at times. I am just hoping that time will make her more mature as it ticks slowly.

Lastly, the top level manager passed away all of a sudden. Nothing much to comment. =( Sent him off on Monday.

The only happy thing was that I so enjoyed seeing children so facinated with bubbles. They were running towards the guy who was creating the bubbles, jumping up and down trying to catch the bubbles. Its just so nice being a kid, having such fun. I kinda miss my childhood days. Please bring me back to my childhood days...

Rants

I seriously have to stand up for myself cos it sucks being pushed over by others.
Personally, I think I'm really not fit to do business.
I can just give up my profits just because my partner mentioned something and I'll give in to it though it's not the actual intended.
It's not the first time and I'm repeating it all over again.
This sucks to the coree~
Will never do anything with her again!!
I'll have my own profit and she'll have hers.

I'm really hoping that others projects will work. :)
No more 'Roti-Prata-ing' of words!! :P

FUCK OFF!

i'm fucking pissed with everything!!
not sure why but yes!!
any teeny weeny things is just getting up on my nerves
fuck my emotions, fuck the roller coaster mood swings, fuck the fact that life is fucking unfair.
my life is so fucked up!!!

Ody

Ody wasn't feeling well the whole week. Sent him to the vet and he's feeling so much better now. Seriously, what I can't stand is that people are asking,"Why is there nothing wrong with Zaedy?" In addition, they commented,"This is so STUPID!!" I tried to explain but they just don't get it. FORGEt IT!! I deem you people as IGNORANT. TOTALLY PISSED!!

Anyway, Ody has very sensitive digestive system. He'll poo soft stools whenever he eats food that he's not supposed to. And I ever witnessed that he LS within 3 mins after eating kibbles. No point ranting here when it had past. As long as Ody is fine.

I NEED A NEW PHONE

I have to change to a new set of phone ASAP!
The side of my phone actually chipped off and is now left dangling.
In addition, the chipped piece is affecting the sliding of my phone..
It just get stuck!! argh!!

Furthermore, there are just too many things that I have to get.
Need to get a camera cos I lost it.
Feel so handicapped without a camera.

New Year Woes

1st day of work for the year.. argh!!
Had a real bad time over the new year week.
I LOST MY CAMERA!!
Fucking sickening lah!!
I put it in my pouch, all zipped up but it still went missing..
All the photos of my countdown, the video that I took.. :(
Whatever, cannot be helped anyway.
It totally nowhere to be located!!
The worst thing is that I just told Bear that I wanna get a DSLR and it went running away from me forever!!

Bear had a tough start too.
This Fucker actually did really mean things to Bear!!
We made a report and the fucking Police lose the very important document to the case!!
WHAT THE FUCK ARE THE POLICE ON DUTY THAT DAY DOING?
In any case, I'm going to make you guys responsible for the lost if that fucker cannot be charged.

Rants

just some childish, juvenile rantings to someone who obviously need some self-reflections.
me trying to mediate is a wrong move so i shan't bother anymore.
and i wouldn't PATRONISE from now on as TOLD! WHATEVER!!!
likewise, DO NOT TRESPASS INTO MY LIFE as i'm not the one who sings the same song with ya.
see it as a threat? can't be bothered.
just wanna make known that its just a WARNING!

RUINED DAY

WTF!!
An email received at 0630 mentioning that the call at 0800 is cancelled!
I could have SLEEP longer in BED!!
ARGH!! SUCKS!!

Random

Can't believe that I'm such a blur sotong (another word for it is STUPID) yesterday.
I took the wrong bus twice in a day.
Once for lunch and the other back to Yishun.
I hate it when I have to rush from one place to another when I know that traffic is a total killer.
Argh.
Spent $ on cabbing back when I'm so broke!

Next, brought Ody out for walks at like 0530 in the morning everyday.
Cats are just everywhere in my neighbourhood.
This is because of the number of Malays living around the area too.
The cats are just so damn irritating.
I've trained Ody to ignore them yet they are always trying to annoy him.
Whenever Ody saw cats, he'll walk away as thou he saw nothing.
Cats on the other hand, are always trying to challenge him!
Argh..
One even followed all the way to my door step after Ody's morning walk.
WTF?!
Anyway, I hate STRAY CATS as they are just so irritating!!

Sugar or Candy

Sugar is nothing
Candy is LIFE!

Been Good?

Attended a talk on practicing Buddhism over the weekend. Kinda interesting. =) Shan't elaborate cos it may be a bore to some.

Hadn't have a nice good week these days. On Monday, I forgot to bring my lappy back to work. -.- what a lame excuse. Worst of all, boss flew to SG for meeting and saw me rushing off. Oops.. Rushed home to get my lappy and back to office.

Tuesday, I missed the bus to office. FUCK!! I hate this man. Having a colleague in the bus but he does nothing at all. Knowing that I will be going to work but he just keep mum and allow the bus to leave without me. argh!! I can do nothing about it cos of some personal reasons and also it is because I'm LATE! BLOODY SHITE!!

Today, almost got my head separated from my body!! The freaking lift door just closed right at the corner of my slit eyes. FUCK!! The people in the fucking lift are supposed to fucking hell press the FUCKING DOOR OPEN BUTTON!! SHITE!

These 3 days FUCKINGLY SUCKS!!

Nevertheless, I went for blood donation yesterday. Still very scared of needles but I took the courage to sit through it. Of course, that is with the help of my colleague. =) This time round it didn't hurt much. Feel kinda happy about it too.. =)

Lessons had started.. It'll be another war for 3 mths after which I'll be free.. That's if I dun FAIL any paper.. Pray hard, Work hard. =)

Moving Around

I'm freaking pissed but I can't do a damn. On my way to work in a cab, using my last cents to pay for the fare, I've made up my mind to get a Class 2B by the end of this year and of course my little scooter too. Be it a Vespa or Runner. I will get them once I get my license. In this case I'll be able to go around the small island without having to worry and bother people. Will not have to be under other's call and I can go wherever.

SWELL

Not sure what had bitten me but the bite is really horrendous. Thinking that it's only a mosquito bite, didnt really bother much abt it. Beary applied some medication on it and hoping that I'll feel better. To my surprise in the morning, it swelled even more!! Might be due to the excessive scratching when I'm sleeping. The worse thing is that it hurts when I walk and thanks to my itchy fingers, there's some fluid oozing out of the badly scratched bite. Going to a doctor later. God please tell me that it's nothing fatal. (a lil exaggerated.. I KNOW.)

Not only that, my ears have been swelling from naggings and whinings. =) Beary, I understand that time has been hard on you but no matter what, I'll be there for you alright. I need to see Dr. Yong soon. Guess my middle-ear infection is back. It hurts!!

I'm getting old.. REALLY old with all these pain and illnesses. Undergoing some PRE-MATURE AGING!! HELP ME!!! Praying hard to my Guardian Angel that all these will go away before X'mas.

Appreciation

I guess many does not know the art of appreciation, the art of showing appreciation.
Like me? I guess I'm just one of them. =)
after 21 yrs in this world.
Call me a spoilt brat, a bitch or whatever that comes to your mind.
Just think of the amount of appreciation you received till now.
No one thank you for your good but scrutinise your bad.
It's not that we are not open to comments but there is a word called, "BALANCE".
Sing some praises if needed. It really make one's day.
My pal Joanna, is always whining abt this colleague of hers.
Hey SHOW APPRECIATION!! It dun have to be a real FANCIFUL one but just a simple THANK YOU will do.
Same applies to a relationship.
Do not ever take one for granted.
I know I do, and always do.
Cos I'm living in denial, in deception.
Please get me out of this messed up, complicated world.