work rants

seriously, i am really sick and tired of my job.
its like there is so much work to do and everyone in the office just seems to push it to my function.
i am starting to dread everything that i am doing because i am totally sandwiched in the middle.
one, my team in DHL is not even truthful to start of with.
we are paying them for 5 headcounts but only 4 headcount is working.
it is like so WTF right?!
the worst thing is that when i start to question them on this, they went like, she is still around, still working.
next, there is a process change and no one is being informed on the change.
now everyone is trying to push this away from there ownership and who gets the workload??
its me in the end.
its totally fucked up!!

Renewed Me

i realised that i have got you out of my life.
i have learnt to be really on my own that i no longer need you in my life.
i am able to live as well.
i have grown to be really sick and tired of what we used to go through.
i am a new me now!

Langkawi

me is back from the island of sun, sand and sea!!
though it is only a very very short trip out, i totally enjoyed myself. =)
cant really remember what we actually did there but it was really fun!!
First highlight of the trip is me being able to jet ski!!
I was a totally reckless driver and it feels great skiing around in the open sea.
Next was the Snake Sanctuary.
Had fun touching the snakes!
They are not slimy at all.
Lastly, was fined by the traffic police because I didnt fasten my seat belt..
and we actually managed to bribe the police officer instead..
this is how dark m'sia can be.

Family

Mum fell ill last week and I realised that she has no one who is willing to take care of her. Though mum is already an adult, I still think that someone in the family should take care of her. Have you forgotten about the care and love that Mum showered you when you were sick? Now, she is sick but none of you are there to take care of her, show her that little bit of concern. I am totally disappointed. She raised you up and provided everything that you need but in return she's being treated like this.

How will the family be like if I were to leave for a year? Seriously, the condition of everything will have to be determined by how much effort you are willing to put in.

Wish list

1. Watch (FCUK or Kenneth Cole)
2. Books
3. iPod nano
4. iPhone4 or iPad
5. DSLR (nikon)
6. Straw Hat

Nice Girl?

I'm really touched that my darling Ah Fang actually said that I'm a nice girl.
And she told me that a nice girl with good heart will have luck in finding the one right one.

I think there are really a lot of my past that loads others doesn't know about, like how rebellious I was, what are the things that I have actually done to others and myself too.
Events whereby I regretted terribly till now and will always be.
At times, I think being myself is so miserable because I seldom share with others the real dark me.
Life is a facade, no matter how dark my day is, I will try my best to hide it with a smile. =)
The lie that I said loads will be, "I'm fine."
But in actual fact, I'm not.. LOL!

Anyways, I'm just too jaded with LIFE so I'm no longer expecting as much like I do before.
Life still goes on, so live with what I have and be contented.

i'm back

after 12days of travelling in China, i'm finally back!
i miss home loads and my peeps too.
i have been really disconnected with the internet world for the whole time through and felt kinda lost.
what have the internet world turned me into?

as usual, travelling long distance on the coach made me think through life a lot.
and i have made up my mind to stop looking for love, stop hoping that being in love is like a fairytale.
it may seem like i am shutting myself up and reason is that i do not want to be hurt again.
i am happy with my life now and will not want to change it unless there is someone able to prove that he is really worthy.