Psychedelic Girl

Hang Zhou

2011-03-16T17:49:00.002+08:00

made a trip down to Hang Zhou and i didnt really enjoy it that much.
1st, the company is totally off.
its all the AH TIONGS and i totally cannot stand it when they just try to clear their bloody throat and sneeze without even covering their mouth.
what's worse, after digging their nose, they practically clean it on any surface other then theirs.
totally GROSS!!

2nd, its too rush and we didnt get to capture enough scenery.
i quite like the temple thou.

lastly, i think its nice to have someone i know through out the whole trip, but it sucks if that person is always there 24/7.
yes, i meant him!!

i'm coming back real soon and moving to a new set of work.
hoping that i will be really great with my new chapter in life as this work is already a chore to me that i no longer find joy.
thou i must say that i am going to miss the weather and the online shopping here, but i am sure that i will enjoy myself even better in my ever warm and sunny SINGAPORE.

Back!

2011-01-31T23:20:00.001+08:00

i'm back!!
this time, only for a month and i will gotta return on the 21 feb.
sigh..
my days here are counted
i have to spend my days wisely.

it feels really great to be back.
i love the weather here and really appreciate the heat.
to loads of people out there, they would love to see snow and not experience the heat here.

the food here is also awesome.
i got to eat Sting Ray, Curry Fish Head and yada yada.
slurps..
will have to eat all the delicacies before i leave for SH till i dunno when..
serve me with local food please!!! LOl

Shanghai IV

2010-12-20T13:23:00.002+08:00

realised that i have been acting like a needy baby who just keep ranting about this and that.
argh.
i hate myself being like that.
but what more can i do about it?
i will just have to learn to live with it.
seriously, thanks anna to be there for me though i can be really stubborn. *laughs*
i will be in my turtle shell for the time-being till i settled with all my stupid emotions.
i have started sending my resume out.
and i am really hoping to get into apple.
the job description totally fits into mine and i am so willing to take up that challenge.
praying hard. =)

its 5 more days to xmas and this is the saddest part of the whole 2010.
i am in a foreign land and there is like nothing much i can do.
sigh.
will learn to deal with it.

i believe i can and get out of this damn turtle shell cos its kinda sucky too..

Shanghai III

2010-12-14T13:51:00.002+08:00

over the weekends, we have had cleaned the fridge up and guess what i've found??
rotten chunks of meat and squid.
omg!!
they stink the whole fridge up alright.
seriously, the cleaning they do is really superficial.
they only cleaned areas whereby eyes can see and ignored those that can be hidden behind doors.
and i was told to TRUST them, trust the photos i see.
and i conclude that, this is so much TRUST i should have.

next, i had lunch and i found a DAMN BIG worm lah.
i almost puked can.
why on earth am i here?
pls let me know.

next, i dun think i like my job that much already.
no matter how much i know, how much i do, i still wouldnt be in anyways 'shinning'
in this case, why should i stay?
i believe i will be able to look for a better job out there.
i totally envy those people who love their job loads.
sigh.

Shanghai II

2010-12-10T15:38:00.003+08:00

i'm getting used to the life here.
eating out or ordering delivery daily.
this sucks.
i'm thinking of preparing food on my own because the people here pack their own lunch.
i will have to do grocery shopping at the market or supermarket.
next, up on mind, where the hell is the market?
would i see jumping chicken slaughtered on the point?
would i see the fish out of gasping for air once out of the water?
all these are really scary.
but i will still have to get ingredients to cook.
will source for alternatives then.

i still sleep with my lights on.
super scary when i'm all alone in the big apartment.
anyway, the only thing i look forward to is SHOPPING.
hahha..
be it grocery or window. =D

Shanghai I

2010-11-29T11:20:00.003+08:00

I'm currently in Shanghai. Yes, I'm not a tad bit excited over this stay and I will only be back home in like January. Super turn off.

Mummy, Prissy and Ben sent me to the airport and Mum had to pay like 225 bucks for my overweight baggage. LOl. Now i'm thinking like how am I going to get it back to SG when I'm back? B surprised me at the airport too. If only I have Ody with me at least.

I have never imagined I could like bring blanket, pillows and other stuff back to the apartment all alone but I did it. I totally looked like those aunties carrying all the bags on the hand trying to hard to push the door open. Yeah! Watch more Taiwanese Drama and you will understand what I'm referring to.

The corridor lights are all on motion sensor and it only lit up for like 30 secs? After that, it will be pitch dark!! Seriously, you would not be able to see a thing. Freaking scary at the start.

Next, my apartment is like situated in the middle of the other 2 and my room is just above the corridor. At night when I sleep, I always fear that someone is opening my door because the next door people are just so close to me. Its like only 3 steps away from my door left and right.

Lastly, the stuff here are not cheap in RMB unless you were to convert it to SGD. How can the local even afford such stuff? Which means, who would I be able to afford them because I'm on local terms. =(

Have posted some pictures in Facebook too. So just keep connected via FB. =)

P/S: Blogger, Twitter and FB are blocked in China.

Society

2010-11-05T19:21:00.002+08:00

What is actually wrong with the youngers these days? Or I should say the society?
Someone got murdered just because of a staring incident? Raping cases?

Is Singapore still a safe place to stay in? I know that we shouldn't be complacent with the crime rates but should the education system change to cultivate the people to be more refine? Should the parents pay more attention to their children? Should the government provide more incentives so that the parents wouldnt have work that hard and neglect their children. In this case, birth rates might increase? I think we people should learn not to be rash and think of all the consequences before taking actions.

301st post

2010-11-03T16:02:00.002+08:00

i have been missing in action. haha.
too busy with work already..
meetings and meetings, new process and implementation..
i'm really very tired of it already.
i havent been exercising too..
this means that i'm gaining loads of weight too..
sigh.

i'm one year older in October and i love my sugababes for the dinner and the very useful pressie!! =)
hearts you girls loads..
need to meet up with you before i fly.
and i'm really happy with my family too. =)
hearts the ladies in my family too..

as for my dudes, they are so so so disappointing lors!!
it's like whenever it's their bday i will make it a point to celebrate it for them but mine???
just a fb post.. -.-"
i know i shouldnt be calculative because they remembered but...
forget it lahs!!
men will always be men..

now, i have to pack my stuff and shop for items that i hadnt got.
i have yet prepare a checklist too..
save me from all these!! =x

work rants

2010-09-20T20:48:00.002+08:00

seriously, i am really sick and tired of my job.
its like there is so much work to do and everyone in the office just seems to push it to my function.
i am starting to dread everything that i am doing because i am totally sandwiched in the middle.
one, my team in DHL is not even truthful to start of with.
we are paying them for 5 headcounts but only 4 headcount is working.
it is like so WTF right?!
the worst thing is that when i start to question them on this, they went like, she is still around, still working.
next, there is a process change and no one is being informed on the change.
now everyone is trying to push this away from there ownership and who gets the workload??
its me in the end.
its totally fucked up!!

Renewed Me

2010-09-08T10:56:00.002+08:00

i realised that i have got you out of my life.
i have learnt to be really on my own that i no longer need you in my life.
i am able to live as well.
i have grown to be really sick and tired of what we used to go through.
i am a new me now!

Langkawi

2010-08-30T13:17:00.004+08:00

me is back from the island of sun, sand and sea!!
though it is only a very very short trip out, i totally enjoyed myself. =)
cant really remember what we actually did there but it was really fun!!
First highlight of the trip is me being able to jet ski!!
I was a totally reckless driver and it feels great skiing around in the open sea.
Next was the Snake Sanctuary.
Had fun touching the snakes!
They are not slimy at all.
Lastly, was fined by the traffic police because I didnt fasten my seat belt..
and we actually managed to bribe the police officer instead..
this is how dark m'sia can be.

Family

2010-08-23T11:01:00.002+08:00

Mum fell ill last week and I realised that she has no one who is willing to take care of her. Though mum is already an adult, I still think that someone in the family should take care of her. Have you forgotten about the care and love that Mum showered you when you were sick? Now, she is sick but none of you are there to take care of her, show her that little bit of concern. I am totally disappointed. She raised you up and provided everything that you need but in return she's being treated like this.

How will the family be like if I were to leave for a year? Seriously, the condition of everything will have to be determined by how much effort you are willing to put in.

Wish list

2010-07-23T16:36:00.002+08:00

1. Watch (FCUK or Kenneth Cole)
2. Books
3. iPod nano
4. iPhone4 or iPad
5. DSLR (nikon)
6. Straw Hat

Nice Girl?

2010-07-22T10:35:00.002+08:00

I'm really touched that my darling Ah Fang actually said that I'm a nice girl.
And she told me that a nice girl with good heart will have luck in finding the one right one.

I think there are really a lot of my past that loads others doesn't know about, like how rebellious I was, what are the things that I have actually done to others and myself too.
Events whereby I regretted terribly till now and will always be.
At times, I think being myself is so miserable because I seldom share with others the real dark me.
Life is a facade, no matter how dark my day is, I will try my best to hide it with a smile. =)
The lie that I said loads will be, "I'm fine."
But in actual fact, I'm not.. LOL!

Anyways, I'm just too jaded with LIFE so I'm no longer expecting as much like I do before.
Life still goes on, so live with what I have and be contented.

i'm back

2010-07-12T13:53:00.003+08:00

after 12days of travelling in China, i'm finally back!
i miss home loads and my peeps too.
i have been really disconnected with the internet world for the whole time through and felt kinda lost.
what have the internet world turned me into?

as usual, travelling long distance on the coach made me think through life a lot.
and i have made up my mind to stop looking for love, stop hoping that being in love is like a fairytale.
it may seem like i am shutting myself up and reason is that i do not want to be hurt again.
i am happy with my life now and will not want to change it unless there is someone able to prove that he is really worthy.

weheartit

2010-06-21T16:20:00.003+08:00

Bokeh II

2010-06-21T16:00:00.006+08:00

Personally, i am just not sure why I have this thing for bokeh and i simply love it.
Randomly browsing deviantART and i found hope in these pictures.

This is his uploads to deviantart -> Antontang

true love

2010-06-20T02:48:00.003+08:00

if one ever experienced true love, u will be able to accept the other party for whoever he or she is.
if one ever experienced true love, u will not want to hurt he or she with lies
if one ever experienced true love, u will love he or she wholeheartedly with all your breath and strength
but who ever did?

i did but i didnt get it back in return.

Shuo Huang

2010-06-18T10:51:00.004+08:00

sunshine after the rain

2010-06-18T09:13:00.003+08:00

after a hell of tears, i am feeling so much better.
and thanks so so so much Suga Anna, that's really sweet of you.
and thanks Son, for asking me out so as to keep my mind occupied.
I guess all of us have our own issues and just have to think of ways to curb with them and not allow it to affect us that much.
i guess exclusive love is what i want, but LOVE from everyone is a need!
so start showering everyone with love and they will shower u in return!
XOXO

你为什么说谎 - 丁当

2010-06-15T10:06:00.001+08:00

这次我走开再没有话要说出来
我不想再期待走下去还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安
也捉不住你的倔强
可是我知道你你为什么说谎

你说你还在一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样
为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释你为什么说谎

你不能说我没有爱过
说我没等过难过我也想说
也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来

just when i needed you most

2010-06-09T22:34:00.002+08:00

after so many years of living, i totally understand that the earth doesnt stop spinning just because you're down.
i presume this is the worst time of my life so far.
i hv lost my granny, and a guy that i loved left me.
it all happens so fast that i just realised how much these had affected me.
i am feeling lost and i do not know who to turn to for help.
i am still the one that does not reveal my true weak self.
i believe not many of my pals actually saw the very weak side of me.
the side that i broke down and cry my lungs out.
i have been living in a facade and i'm tired of this.
i wanna be happy and more positive, else the next suicide case might be me. lol..
not really sure who will be reading this but i am sure i'll be fine soon.
as soon as i have realised the purpose of me living. =)
till then...

2010-06-09T09:34:00.003+08:00

i'm not so sure why am I feeling so down and confused.
i have actually finished reading a book, Buddha by Deepak Chopra.
thou it doesnt really illustrate the real journey of enlightenment, i felt so lost after reading it.
questions thrown to myself:
how can one be free from attachment?
what is filial piety?
with every birth there is death (karma) and how to break away from it?

think i will have to start thinking about it or i will turn to the dark side really soon.. lol.

MALIGNED

2010-06-01T16:57:00.003+08:00

WHAT THE FUCK!!
Had a phone call early in the morning accusing me for what I have not done.
What a great start to the day!!
I have known you for a long period of time and I know what HONESTY means to you.
You on your end pointing fingers at me for no reason and expecting me to take something that I hadn't.
DEEM as you like!!
When I was with ya, I would have taken the blame for whatever even if I'm accused for something that I hadn't
But NOW, I'm myself and I have to stand by my name and I can totally prove that I'm CLEAR!!
Anyway, whatever...
To believe or not it's up to you..
I HAVE A CLEAR CONSCIENCE.
ACCUSE ALL YOU WANT!
NOW, I'M TELLING YOU I CANT BE BOTHERED!!

Uncertainties

2010-05-28T23:13:00.002+08:00

Too many things had happened this week.
Life is never a bed of roses but even if it is, beware of the thorns lying underneath.
For almost the whole of May, I have been visiting hospital as much as me going to office.
Its saddening to see your loved ones weakening each day and finally, leaving you to close the whole chapter of misery.
Dad was like that, and now Granny.
Life is so filled with uncertainties but what is the only 2 certainties?
Birth and Death!
Once one is born, this is certain and everyone has to die too.
The thing that I've learnt is to cherish the ones beside you and show them more care and concern.

Granny's Discharged

2010-05-07T15:41:00.002+08:00

She is finally back home with us.
Thou I can't help much in providing the care and need, I am trying my best to help in every ways.
Skipped the company event just to make sure that she is feeling alright.
Now, she is sleeping soundly in her air-con room.
That feels great because the weather is killing me!!
Totally feel like going out for a swim now..
Will bring Ben once he is back from school. =D

being vegetarian

2010-04-29T18:28:00.002+08:00

whenever i'm vegetarian, friends around me will ask why.
is it because of religion or losing weight?
i would say its none of both.
and what is wrong with being vegetarian?
usually its only for a month.
i did not make a vow or wish therefore be vegetarian.
i would say that being vegetarian makes me happy and i'm liking that fact.
so stop judging me in anyways.

Ody Boy

2010-04-28T11:16:00.003+08:00

This is just another post on this lil boyish dog named Ody.

It all started with me wanting a dog to keep me accompanied. Why? I have totally no idea. Then, Shaun brought me around to look for dogs and I always have a maltese or poodle in mind. A small little lap dog will be good. We searched high and low for the kind of dogs that we would want. Went on the internet, went to pet farms and almost all the pet shops around the area and found this pet shop with the words, "Puppies for SALE" somewhere at the shop front and we walked in to take a look.

The auntie showed us the puppies that she had and took them out for us to play with them. Then, this littlest puppy caught my attention. He was really hyper and ran to us for hugs, that totally win my heart over. After much discussion, we finally bought him. Shaun owned him for the first few days and had a very hard time sleeping as Ody is kept in the playpen alone, whining very loudly trying very hard to get the littlest attention he could. Thereafter, I brought him back home where he truly belongs to. The first headache I had was house-breaking him. He is really very hard to house break. Till today, he is still peeing everywhere around the house because his peeing area is dirty. faints.

Next major thing that happened was he poo with blood. It all started with non-stop diarrhea. Brought him to 3 different vets till his condition finally stablised. I changed his food from kibbles to barf secretly as Shaun will have loads to say if I were to tell him. And surprisingly, Ody got very much better after the change. The only bad was that I have to spend lesser and very much lesser on myself just to make sure he has the best. sighs.

After all the health saga, should start talking about his behaviour at home. He is really a tyrant at home even till now. Sent him to Waggie for training and he dread it. In turn, he failed his assessment and got a certificate of participation. laughs. Though he failed, I could see the drastic change of better behaviour at home, that is excluding the excessive barking. Then, I enrolled him for training with APAWS thinking that I should train him to be a therapy dog. The trainer told me that Ody can take up the competition level as there is not much of a difference and for the price that I am paying, its more worth it and so, I signed him in for competition class. In addition, Ody has this aggression problem that I can't seem to correct him, even till now though he is so so so much better now. I put in the effort to bring him for training every Saturday, missing out on loads of Saturday morning gatherings too. Finally, I took up the courage to sign him up for the SKC Obedience Trial after much thoughts. Jazz, the trainer, told me that Ody is ready and the only concern was which placing he will get. After so much drilling, he came in 4th placing. phew~ I have to thank Jazz for all the time, patience and guidance she had given.

He is turning 3 in May. Time flies. It seems as thou I just bought him from the pet shop not long ago. He brought us loads of joy and sorrows. He is my bestest friend who is always there for me despite me nagging and scolding him. I love him just as much as I love my family.

And lastly, to Ody boy... Happy Birthday!

Ody WON!!

2010-04-25T02:30:00.003+08:00

I'm so happy with Ody's performance today!! =D
I wasn't expecting anything from him today judging from all the hiccups he used to give me on very important days.
Nevertheless, I didn't give up on him and continued training even till the very last minute.

1st, he refused to calm himself down before entering the ring.
2nd, he forgotten his auto-sit at the start of the trial.
3rd, he didn't do his recall perfectly.

I do have my mistakes too. =p
Me, being in the ring for the 1st time, was too nervous when he made mistakes.
I totally lost my mind when there was faults. sigh.
Will work harder on that.. =)

Photos and videos are up in my fb..

Work Rants!!

2010-04-16T14:20:00.003+08:00

I'm so caught in the middle as I am to spare a thought for my boss and Ops.

My Ops have been hiding things from me, not sharing until the very last minute. In a way, I can feel the strain. I totally understand the fact that you guys will not want to have extra work in your workload but am I not trying? Do not instruct me with what you think I should be doing for you.

On the other hand, I would think that supporting to my boss's request is reasonable. It does not kill to do a little extra. In any case, we should give and take instead of rejecting everything. bah~

WORK IS SO SO SO SUCKY!! I WANT A CHANGE OF JOB!!

EMO freak

2010-04-13T14:37:00.004+08:00

I've been so so so EMO these days..
When can my life be as cheerful as before??
I need a change.. I'm drowning..

Sometimes....

2010-04-13T09:37:00.001+08:00

Many a times, guys just don't or never will understand this....

source: http://weheartit.com/entry/1932915

when I say I LOVE YOU

2010-04-12T15:52:00.002+08:00

source: http://weheartit.com/entry/1927431

Just dun understand why.. sigh~

hearts mummy loads

2010-04-04T00:21:00.004+08:00

i've been at home over the long weekend and realised how great my mum is. she is such a loving mother who cares and loves us despite e wrongs that we have done. she taught us loads and i really appreciate what she had done for us.

in fact, she stayed up late for the past few nights waiting for us to be home before she turn in for the day. i was with her watching tv programmes, accompanying her wait till she's tired. thou she always mention that her girls are old enough and she couldnt really be bothered with our lives, deep inside her, the worried worms still surface.

i remembered when i just broke up w Bear, i went out drinking alot, practically stopped eating for a month or so and she got really worried. she kept bringing me out even to wet market just to make sure i'm alright. she tried cooking food that i like so that i would start eating again. she is just so wonderful! she is always be there to shelter me thru the storms.

mummy, i love u loads! :)

Back

2010-03-29T00:20:00.002+08:00

I'm back from my getaway trip, Taiwan!! =)
I'm so exhausted from the trip. Had been moving around in the tour bus from point to point and waking up at 5ish throughout the whole trip is horrendous. Nevertheless, I've enjoyed myself. Will skip the day to day itinerary.

As usual, after checking into the hotel in the night, B and I went out for supper though we were both so so bloody filled up. We sat at this dessert stall eating our dessert and some roadside stall food, and this medium-sized stray came out from nowhere came to our table and started staring at B with his very very big and watery eyes, begging for food.. Initially, both of us kinda ignored it but it just kept staring at B and its persistence really paid off.

The later few days were really cold!! Temperature dropped from 20 odd to 10 odd and the wind was blowing 'non-stop'. Walking out on the streets in the evening can kill cos we didn't expect the drastic change in temperature. Despite us freezing, we refuse to buy a thicker coat at the night market. Yes, we both are just too stubborn. Worst of all, we challenged each other to eat ice-cream in such condition. LOl..

Hot spring was great minus the CHEENAS that were really really a turn off. The smell of sulphur from the hot spring is still manageable and i took a dip in the pool where the temperature was 42 degrees celsius.. It feels totally awesome after soaking myself in the water..

Shopping was fun!! Though I didnt really buy much back due to them selling mostly winter apparels, being able to eat and shop at the same time is really really great! Why cant spore just be like them?

I'm really hungry NOW!! Thinking of the chicken cutlet!! slurps...

Bokeh

2010-03-19T15:33:00.005+08:00

I'm am so in love with BOKEH ever since I saw Dave took the X.X photo for Adil when we were out for some photography sometime during xmas09. Have been trying it out with my own little camera and I've been really hooked on it. Though I have yet take a really nice one, I will try it out over and over again till i get it!! Persistence is needed in photography!! And I really need to rush up on my lousy skills too! ):

Here are 2 nice shots that I hearts...

source:diyhappy.com

source: deviantart.com

source: deviantart.com

source: deviantart.com

source: deviantart.com

Naive Love

2010-03-15T10:40:00.003+08:00

source: http://weheartit.com/entry/1688449

Love can be that naive and pure to children.
If only in the 'adult' world it can be the same... it'll be really pretty..
But it only happens in fairytale. =(

Breathing Exercise

2010-03-02T09:41:00.002+08:00

Met a really interesting guy on the bus today.
He's an indian, tall and middle aged.
First, he took his counter out and started clicking it. I presume that he is chanting some chant in his heart.
Next, he started doing some breathing exercise which i learnt from taking up yoga. LOL.. At that point of time, I had the urge to do it together with him. But, after much thoughts, I think it will be really funny so I didn't and I wasn't feeling that good too.

Went kayaking on Sunday. It was really tiring! It has been ages since I last did that and I totally enjoyed myself. Whee! I'm so looking forward to more outdoor activities.. La, Pris, Gladys and YY, when are we going for ours??

Regardless of Race, Language or Religion

2010-02-18T09:58:00.005+08:00

Seriously, me as a Buddhist, after watching the video, I kinda think that they seriously know nothing about Buddhism, where Karma is just a part of it. And, Karma exist.. It is the cause and effect of an action and decision, be it a good or bad. No matter what happened in your previous life, forget it. Just live to your life fullest NOW! Do good and be Happy! =)

Each of us have the choice to believe in what we want to but that doesn't mean that one can laugh about other religions. I think it is a form of courtesy to respect the various religions. From what I believe, all religions are teaching us to be good in order to be in Heaven. So, just be good.. As for the Pastor, I think he has to learn to face with all the criticism and not leave. In no time, this saga will be over. =)

Boo~

2010-02-11T10:27:00.002+08:00

How I behave in a relationship is how much you mean to me.
Do not tell me what I can do, what I can't.
Do not restrict me when I have already laid my R&R that clear.
I think I am just not ready for one.. =p

Jog to Labrador Park

2010-01-14T14:44:00.004+08:00

I started jogging with my colleagues after work. I enjoyed it a lot though the jog was to be own time own target and the SUPER STEEP SLOPE to the park is a KILLER!!
Nevertheless, after all these hardwork, I was able to catch a glimpse of sunset and was thrilled by that sight. =)

Reindeer

2009-12-24T00:47:00.003+08:00

Went to town for a short walk and we ended up shooting all the reindeers that we saw along orchard road. it was fun, fun and FUN!! =D

Gloomy Weekend

2009-12-08T16:11:00.003+08:00

It's Tuesday and I'm thinking back on what happened over the weekends.
The only word I can use was HORRENDOUS!!

First, Zeng Yuan organised KTV and didn't turn up leaving me and Yong Jie thinking that he'll be reaching hour after hour. The worst part was that when we ended everything, he didnt want to pick up our call!! Totally pissed, didnt wanna talk to him at all thou he asked for another KTV session. My point was that he should learn from it as we made time for him and he did this to us. Not going to delicate time just because he wants it that way. LOl. Yes.. I may be petty but he ought to learn that not everyone is so free for him to be played out.

Next, Lala didnt something really wrong and instead of feeling sorry for her actions, she got really defensive. sigh. My this sista really have a mind of her own and can be really stubborn at times. I am just hoping that time will make her more mature as it ticks slowly.

Lastly, the top level manager passed away all of a sudden. Nothing much to comment. =( Sent him off on Monday.

The only happy thing was that I so enjoyed seeing children so facinated with bubbles. They were running towards the guy who was creating the bubbles, jumping up and down trying to catch the bubbles. Its just so nice being a kid, having such fun. I kinda miss my childhood days. Please bring me back to my childhood days...

Broadway Beng

2009-12-05T03:38:00.002+08:00

Watched Broadway Beng at the Esplanade.
I have to declare that I finally got to watch this musical with my friends.
Always wanted to watch it with Shaun but the day never come.
I totally enjoyed the musical and the proposal was really something so fairytale, so sweet that every girl will say yes to it.

Not sure why these days I'm feeling odd.
Like the fireworks at Vivo, it just feels so whimsical.
It might be due to the ignorance of the fireworks display on that day.
In the past, I used to watch fireworks display knowing the details and have never really appreciated the effort of getting myself there with someone that I loved.
Was standing really close to the firing platform and the feeling was completely different.
I teared while watching it, thinking of the past. =(

Sad memories are the worst things in my life but I just can't seem to get rid of it.
Worst of all, sad memories are the ones that hit most and happy ones are always forgotten very quickly.
Will just have to load myself with loads of happy memories that I can keep and remember forever.

My New Toy!

2009-11-30T14:08:00.006+08:00

Finally bought myself a camera.
This time, I will try not to lose my camera again.
Went to Sitex to try out the Canon G11 but decided on Panasonic Lumix LX3. =P
Comparing the lens, size and weight, LX is on the upper hand.
One thing that I like about G11 is the extended screen.

Brought Ody to AMK Hub after his training for my camera. =)
He was totally a chick magnet.
The showgirls were so amazed by his good behaviour when I put him on the chair, he did not jump off the chair but sat there patiently waiting for me.
Those girls do not know that Ody is undergoing a series of tough training to attain such 'good' behaviour.
Now, I gotta work on Zaedy!
He's totally hopeless!! =X

Was so excited that I dig Prissy and YY up from bed after the batteries are fully charged.
We walked the dogs to Yishun Park instead of the intended, Bottle Tree Park, due to the rain.
Enjoyed ourselves very much! :)
Prissy and YY played like they were still a lil kid.. haha.
Photos posted on FB

Here are some pictures that I took when I was out with Mummy and Lala. =D

EMO

2009-11-18T10:35:00.002+08:00

Have been feeling really emotional these days and I believe it is due to HORMONES! -dread-
Been pouring all my sorrows to the lil bunny and it is really nice and kind of him despite all the presentations that he needs to prepare and yada yada. =D
Thanks so much bunny.
xoxo

First Love?

2009-11-16T15:06:00.002+08:00

Impromptu thought that came to my mind.

These days, do you still see or hear friends or people around you saying that he is my first love and I am his too, and we are getting married.
This may sound so cliche but I have seen and encountered people like this.
I really envy them as they are really contented with what they have and of course, know that that is the right one before proceeding into a relationship.
They might not even know how does it feel being heartbroken.

As for those who have been in and out of a relationship, like me, they became really jaded, or is it only me?
I find that after each relationship, you will learn to understand yourself more and see more flaws of a man.
Flaws that can be really destructive in a way.
I have been really afraid of my partner lying and feeling really insecure no matter what.
In turn, I have learnt to live in delusion and not want to bother about what is more than me and him as I have the perspective whereby the more I know, the more I will hurt.
There are just too many things deep down in me that I have not mentioned to anyone.
So much that I find it really hard to continue in a relationship.
So much that caused loads of quarrels and unhappy moments.
So much that I draw a wall between both.
So much that I do not think that going into a relationship is a right choice in any circumstances.
I totally understand that fairytale stories are never true after so many heartbreaks.
But I do believe that true love exists, perhaps just not for me. =)

Albert Einstein Quotes

2009-10-26T10:05:00.002+08:00

Women marry men hoping they will change. Men marry women hoping they will not.

Why will women marry men hoping that they will change?
Wouldn't they marry the perfect one instead of carrying these kinda hopes till they finally give up?
In a very naive way of thinking what love is, accept the flaws..
How many couples can actually do this?

Why men hope that their women will not change?
Looks? Attitude? Naggings?

In short, love is just being very practical!

Yumss...

2009-10-11T10:16:00.004+08:00

Me can make nice Tiramisu!!
Tried making some with the instant mix that I bought from Muji.
How wrong can you go about with instant mix?
So after watching the Chl 8 show which I so happened was watching, I realised that it is just so easy to make them.
Did some further research online and found this really good video..
With the help of the cake mixer that my lovely colleagues bought me as a birthday gift, I used it to whip the cream and it turn out LOVELY!! (no need to manually whip for ages just to get it fluffy)
Did all that I need to and tada, a nice and delicious Tiramisu (with no alcohol thou)..
Will be serving them to my pals when they come over for steamboat on Saturday!
I'm so proud of myself!! =)

Men are SHALLOW

2009-10-08T10:56:00.002+08:00

Men are totally shallow creatures and need their ego constantly stroked!!
On the other hand, Women are materialistic bitches!!

What have gone wrong in life?

Eve of 23rd

2009-10-01T10:58:00.002+08:00

These days, I will do some self-reflections daily.
Most of the time it's when I'm travelling on my way to work or back home.
I'll think of all the things that I've done before and plan for the future.
I think this did help a lot as it made me realise what I have done wrong in the past (includes the current day) and will try to correct them within my means.
In addition, it gave me a clearer picture of how and what I want in my life.
I am really glad that I am still alive to experience these events that is happening around me. :)

I remembered one incident when Jasmine made fun of me when we were much younger.
She did make me blush.
And making me blush is so so simple.
It was really a very very funny experience and then we were all very innocent. :)
This thing I regretted a lot is to drift away from them totally. sigh.
And after given so many chances, I still did the same. :(
I always put LOVE in first priority and now, thinking back it is really so not a single tad bit worth it.
Whatever it is, it is history.
Now it is me putting in all the effort to mend this broken bridge back.
I believe I can do it.
Please trust me that this bridge will not break anymore and stronger as time goes by.

Stronger

2009-09-14T10:13:00.003+08:00

I used to be crying a lot day and night.
I thought of ending my life.
I stopped eating.
I just can't sleep.
Now, I am willing to let my blog readers know how weak a person I am.
I used to put a very strong front and not let others know the soft and weak side of me.
But now, I think there is no point hiding everything, keeping all my feelings to myself which in turn makes me even weaker.
Thanks Gabs for the wake up call!!
Without that, I think I will still be the miserable one. =)

I realised that I even seek solace from God.
I mean when you are really so down and need someone to provide guidance, He is the one who will stand by you without fail.
He will forgive you for all your wrongs and embrace you with all He can.
I know this sound really funny coming from me but it is really true.
By the way, I am not a Christian as many of my friends mistaken me for one.
In General, all religions teach you to be good!

Signed up for the 16km Mizuno run and I managed to complete it.
Mum was really proud of me too. :)
The hardest part of the run is the never ending slopes!
Anyway, will have to keep up with this and prepare for more runs in future. =)
People who are reading this, if you want to have a really slow jogger please ask me out for jogs.. =)

Updates of my Singlehood

2009-08-21T08:39:00.003+08:00

Time is what I seriously need. I'm fine and good and is enjoying my days, rather carefree and I've decided to direct all my time to guitar, Ody and lastly work. :)

I've made up my mind to work harder to get myself converted from a contract to a perm. Need loads of hard work but I'll do it without fail. Just hope that nothing will go wrong and I'll get what I want. FOCUS is all that I need.

Food

2009-08-07T11:04:00.001+08:00

It has been so long till I finally appreciate food. :)
I haven't had food for weeks in fact.
Great thanks to those that were there for me when I was really down..
I had great time with you guys talking sense to me..
I'm still on my way on recovery but I'll stay strong and move on.

7 Things

2009-08-02T08:21:00.002+08:00

Lyrics | Miley Cyrus lyrics - 7 Things lyrics

Think this is a great song to listen when you're trying to move on in life after a break up.. :)
And I'm now SINGLE!! I totally love it.

Impromtu meetup

2009-07-29T12:18:00.003+08:00

Was out with the SGNorth peeps for dinner last evening.
Didnt eat much due to loss of appetite. Think I'm going into some eating disorder soon.
Had a great time with them.
This time not talking about dogs but serial killings and some crime psychology.

Saw Qianni at NorthPoint.
Happily married and just gotta know that she's staying in Yishun.
Wonder if she's pregnant.
The dress that she's in kinda make me think that way. hmm...
Anyway, I'm happy for her. :)
Still as pretty as ever, the ger that has flawless complexion without makeup.

离不开他

2009-07-28T16:48:00.000+08:00

音乐嘀嗒嘀嗒嘀嗒
舞步踢踏踢踏踢踏
每一步都是悲伤的挣扎
带着牵挂
谁都不想先停下
我穿着纯白的薄纱
跟着他旋转在灯下
知道是最后一次拥着他
日出后就应该
试着忘了要试着忘了他
我离不开他
也留不住他
心像空荡大厅
一切就要蒸发
我离不开他
风留不住沙
远去里的牵挂
是思念的时差
跟寂寞对话
我留不住他
耶噢耶
我还在想他
现在好想他好想他

Daily Readings

2009-07-27T09:28:00.002+08:00

I'm referring to horoscope and tarot readings that I subscribed.
I kinda hate it because it was so true when I take all of it so lightly.
I've been noticing that and started to act according to it but it just failed.
How much must I believe in it?
Confused~
I need 'ears' and loads of that.. Anyone willing to spare me theirs?

Just for laughs - Men

2009-07-27T08:43:00.003+08:00

1. Men are like
Laxatives
They irritate the crap out of you.

2. Men are like.
Bananas
The older they get, the less firm they are.

3. Men are like
Weather
Nothing can be done to change them.

4.Men are like
Blenders
You need One, but you're not quite sure why.

5.Men are like
Chocolate Bars
Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.

6. Men are like
Commercials
You can't believe a word they say.

7.Men are like
Department Stores
Their clothes are always 1/2 off!

8. Men are like
Government Bonds
.. They take soooooooo long to mature.

9. Men are like
Mascara
They usually run at the first sign of emotion.

10.
Men are like
Popcorn
They satisfy you, but only for a little while.

11. Men are like
Snowstorms
You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.

12. Men are like
Lava Lamps
Fun to look at, but not very bright.

13. Men are like
Parking Spots
All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

I'm Back

2009-07-21T14:50:00.002+08:00

Went to Inner Mongolia and Gansu for a holiday.
The weather was terrible and food was very oily.
But overall, it's kinda fun and informative.
Visited loads of grottoes, Mogao Grottoes is one of them, around the area and it was really an eye-opener.
Can't imagine how people in the ancient days are able to complete such murals and sculptures using mud and wood.
Most amazingly, the colours for most of the murals and sculptures are still very vibrant especially those which was mixed with powdered gem stones like turquoise and ruby.

Other than grottoes visiting, I did rode on both a horse and camel.
First time doing it and I pretty enjoy the rides.
We were laughing at the actions and behaviours of the horses especially the one that mum rode on.
It was practically farting the journey and at some point of the journey, I was behind it.

On the last day, I was suffering from a serious diarrhea and just can't stop running into the toilet.
Ate loads of various medication to stop it but not working at all.
Adding on to this, our flight back to SG was delayed for 5 hours.
This means that I'm 5 hours late from home and I suffered for another 5 hours in a foreign land before being able to get myself to the clinic.
Now, I'm feeling very much better but not totally.

Anyway, I have a new want, the BlackBird Fly Camera.
Thou its not really practical but I think it's really nice to own one.. :)

- The Bible : 1 Corinthians -

2009-06-25T15:57:00.000+08:00

Love bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.

Tarot Reading

2009-06-23T15:51:00.000+08:00

June 23, 2009
Here's your Tarot Reading for today, Pamela:
	Love	Touchstone	Career



	The Lovers	The Tower	Death

Today | This Week

In your love life, try to leave the hatchet buried today, dear Pamela! Bear in mind that the combined influence of the Tower and the Lovers are bound to put you in a tense emotional frame of mind, with an explosive mix of doubts and aggression. You may have self-doubts, but keep in mind that this is no reason to also doubt your significant other. Try to avoid the conflicts that can so easily arise from all these misunderstandings. In these rather difficult circumstances, the possibility of a separation or a breakup - even if it does not last for long - cannot be totally excluded... In your professional life, it is as though an earthquake was making the walls of your office tremble . The combination of Death and the Tower indicates the end of a mission or of a contract - both of which will leave you with an empty feeling. But, hey, don't let this get you down. Get a grip on yourself, go see your boss and either he'll have a new project for you, or you can propose something you've been wanting to do.

Paranoma 2009

2009-06-11T11:11:00.007+08:00

Met up with my ah neh sista and Gladys for Paranoma at Esplanade. :) As usual, we gossiped a little about the people around and had dinner at Thai Express thereafter. The concert was not really splendid but thinking that it is performed by JC students, they did really a great job. I totally enjoyed myself.

Calories Watch

2009-05-25T09:48:00.005+08:00

Calories - Bah Kut Teh, Buffet @ Inter-Continental, Astons, Crabs.
This is a hell load of calories for 4 evenings straight in a row.
Gotta think of how to lose them. (it's going to be exercise and more exercise)

Had a mini birthday celebration for Angela

Went to a park to get some photo shoots with Ade and Vic and of course the dogs. :)
Just can't wait to see the photos.

Us at the park with the guys as photographer

Bear, Vic and I are going on a trip to Mt Ophir this weekend.
The thought of walking up to the summit to catch the sunrise is making me so enthusiastic.
I can't wait for weekend to come!!!

Bloom, Blooming, Bloomed

2009-05-22T15:20:00.002+08:00

This is what I took from my window. :)
It just make my day looking at them.
I would be even better if I wake up with flowers surrounding me.. (dream on)

Intellectual Games

2009-05-20T07:50:00.004+08:00

I think we all know the rules of the game when it comes to 'Hunting for the right one'.
First thing foremost, do not try hitting on girls that are attached.
Though the girl might be trying to hide her relationship status, once know about it, should just back off and start casting again.
Right morals are one of the factor that impress anyone.

Next, guys should not be too pushy in wanting to meet his objectives.
Like wanting to meet the girl and just appear at her doorstep.
I think it may work for perhaps once or twice but not all the time.
If it ever happens to me, I will feel so obliged.
In another words, do less and the attraction factor will come into play as the other party will think why is he/she not a tad bit interested in me.

Lastly, playing hard to get may work but too much will kill too.
By creating that sense of mystery, unfamiliarity, and the thrill of the chase end up becoming too elusive that the other person assumes they’re not interested or the other person after a while gets tired, gives up and moves on.

reference: http://www.askmen.com/dating/heidi/47_dating_girl.html

Bear and I have talked about the above and I am really impressed with all his answers.
He gives me the sense of security and hows me how much this relationship means to him.
We both agree that I am really weak at rejecting others and will learn to work on that. (:
Lastly, personally thinks that those who have yet watch the movie, He's just not into you, should really go catch them. (DVDs or leech from somewhere.. You know what I mean)

Worn Out

2009-05-18T17:01:00.003+08:00

This weekend was terrible.
Feeling so lethargic forever but just can't get enough sleep.
Went mosquito feeding at Sungei Buloh Nature Reserve but managed to catch a glimpse of the setting sun. :)
Next, was at SKC for a short while and had to leave due to work. darn
When I got home, issue was resolved. FUCK!!
Ended up at USDB buying a mini cake for Ody to celebrate his barkday!
Mahjong till late and I'm like a walking zombie now~
I'M SERIOUSLY IN NEED OF SLEEP!!

Divorced

2009-05-12T11:22:00.002+08:00

I've just divorced my Braces and remarry Retainers. :P
Feeling really happy now but I kinda have a tad bit of withdrawal.
It kinda feel weird to smile now.
Just not used to it I think.
Will be collecting my hubby Retainers next week.
Can't wait to see my hubby.

Deciding Factor

2009-05-09T02:23:00.002+08:00

There was once Prissy threw me this question, "How long have you known Bear before both start dating?"
Obviously, we haven't know each other for a long period of time.
Next question she asked was, "What made you so sure that he is the one for you at that moment of time?"
Me? Totally speechless.
So I asked Bear the exact same question and i got nothing from it.
I am not sure is it whether he do not wish to answer or he has no answer for it.

Now if you were to ask if I have regretted going into a relationship with him, I will say, "NO!"
He is the one that pampers me a lot, taught me loads of morals and yada yada.
I have never apologised to my mum after throwing tantrum ever in my life but after knowing Bear, I actually did it and with a hug.
And I believe that mum was really amazed and touched.

Next will be our future.
Will we be together till we age and leave the world?
Or will me just leave when time is up?
Seriously, both of us do not know what the future might hold.

Lastly, I have to announce to all that today is our 21st monthsary. :)
I love my Bear loads and seriously LOADS.
Just bare with me being so mushy~

Updates

2009-04-27T14:16:00.003+08:00

Haven't touched this blog for a long time I supposed.
1st news to road users, watch out for me on the road!!
I've passed my Traffic Police Driving Test with 18 demerit points.
Drove Bear's bluey to AMK Hub at tortoise speed. LAUGHS!
Most importantly, Bear survived the ride!

2ndly, I've went to Korea and is back BROKE!!
Bought darn load of stuff for Prissy. (shoes, pens, clothes and yada yada)
Enjoyed the temperature and FOOD there!!
Will definitely go there again if I can. :)

3rdly, Ody is turning 2!
Time flies really fast when we are unaware of it.
He's so much more well behaved compared to before but he's far to ALPHA!!
He is no longer submissive and doesn't like to be pawed either.
This has to be corrected else he'll be getting into dog fights..
SIGH!!

P/S: Have uploaded photos on my trip to Korea in Facebook. Do view it from there. :)

Rants

2009-04-14T09:59:00.003+08:00

I seriously have to stand up for myself cos it sucks being pushed over by others.
Personally, I think I'm really not fit to do business.
I can just give up my profits just because my partner mentioned something and I'll give in to it though it's not the actual intended.
It's not the first time and I'm repeating it all over again.
This sucks to the coree~
Will never do anything with her again!!
I'll have my own profit and she'll have hers.

I'm really hoping that others projects will work. :)
No more 'Roti-Prata-ing' of words!! :P

Leaving on a Jet Plane

2009-04-02T15:18:00.003+08:00

In less than 24 hours I'll be in a foreign land.
A land whereby citizens don't usually speak English.
A land whereby loads of shopping can be done. :)
And people with LOADS of common sense will know that Bear's free for the week!!
He's available for anything and everything.
Ody will be with his Godpawrents, Ade and Vic, having the company of Cobi.
No more 'annoying' lil cutie, Zaedy boy.
No more choking on his golden fur that sheds like crazy. :P
As for mummy, she's all good with her other 3 precious daughter. :)

Guitar Lessons

2009-04-02T10:43:00.000+08:00

Now I totally understand the pain that all musicians have to go through.
My fingers are totally aching after my first guitar lesson last evening.
It kinda feel blistered and I just can't seem to get the chords rite.
Kinda pissed with myself but the Instructor was saying that it'll be alright. -.-
From the bottom of my heart, I FINALLY TOOK UP MY GUITAR LESSON!!
Been having this thought and finally took the first step together with Bear.
Sustaining a relationship in Singapore is really hard, nothing much can be done and we thought of picking up guitar. Another skills I suppose. :P
Am looking forward to my next guitar lesson.
Till then...
ciaos

Smoking Kills

2009-03-30T09:56:00.004+08:00

I think many people do not realise how does smoking actually kills.
I've been through losing someone who is killed due to smoking and the feeling sucks.
To many, they will think that I'll die no matter what, so why not just smoke and live with it?
The most selfish fact is that passive smokers will be impacted too, which means friends and family members who are NON-SMOKERS will have to face the fact of having cancer.

Short overview of how smoking harms

Why people smoke?
Smoking is one of the most difficult addictions to break. Scientists estimate that cigarettes are more addictive than cocaine, heroin, or alcohol. According to the World Health Organization, smoking kills more people than any disease in the world. With all this information readily available, why do people continue to smoke?

Nicotine is a high addictive drug that makes one feel alert and energize thus most people who started are unable to stop. Smokers feel high after a cigarette, and quitting leads to withdrawal symptoms that include difficulty sleeping and cravings. Seventy percent of people who quit smoking eventually start again.

Tobacco advertising also has a big influence on why people smoke. For years, smoking has been made glamorous through movies, television, and billboards. Now, though cigarette advertising is controlled, its influence can still be felt in the form of free samples, smoking cartoons, and the promise of cool merchandise that can be obtained in exchange for coupons printed on cigarette packs. In addition, smoking reduces the sense of taste thus claim that smoking keeps them thin. Whereas, the fact is they do not enjoy food as much.

Psychological dependency is one of the reasons why people smoke. Smoking helps to relax and cope with difficult situations, or because it gives them more confidence and a feeling of satisfaction. Others smoke due to boredom. Finally, people who smoke are usually in denial – they are aware of the effects of smoking yet choose to continue as it does not seem that bad.

Smoking is a social activity as well. Many people who smoke do so as a way to start conversations and interact at parties or in crowded places. This is known as "social smoking," and it usually involves alcohol as a complement.

Many teenagers start smoking due to peer pressure. They may also smoke to feel more mature or as a form of rebellion against parental authority. It has been proved that children are also more likely to smoke if their parents do.

Effects of Tobacco Smoke

Every year hundreds of thousands of people around the world die from diseases caused by smoking.

One in two lifetime smokers will die from their habit. Half of these deaths will occur in middle age.

Tobacco smoke also contributes to a number of cancers.

The mixture of nicotine and carbon monoxide in each cigarette you smoke temporarily increases your heart rate and blood pressure, straining your heart and blood vessels.

This can cause heart attacks and stroke. It slows your blood flow, cutting off oxygen to your feet and hands. Some smokers end up having their limbs amputated.

Tar coats your lungs like soot in a chimney and causes cancer. A 20-a-day smoker breathes in up to a full cup (210 g) of tar in a year. Changing to low-tar cigarettes does not help because smokers usually take deeper puffs and hold the smoke in for longer, dragging the tar deeper into their lungs.

Carbon monoxide robs your muscles, brain and body tissue of oxygen, making your whole body and especially your heart work harder. Over time, your airways swell up and let less air into your lungs.

Smoking causes disease and is a slow way to die. The strain put on your body by smoking often causes years of suffering. Emphysema is an illness that slowly rots your lungs. People with emphysema often get bronchitis again and again, and suffer lung and heart failure.

Lung cancer from smoking is caused by the tar in tobacco smoke. Men who smoke are ten times more likely to die from lung cancer than non-smokers.

Heart disease and strokes are also more common among smokers than non-smokers.

Smoking causes fat deposits to narrow and block blood vessels which leads to heart attack.

Smoking causes around one in five deaths from heart disease.

In younger people, three out of four deaths from heart disease are due to smoking.

Effects of 2nd Hand smoke
Passive smoking occurs when the exhaled and ambient smoke from one person's cigarette is inhaled by other people. Non-smokers exposed to second hand smoke are at greater risk for many of the health problems associated with direct smoking.

Non-smokers living with smokers have about a 25 per cent increase in risk of death from heart attack and are also more likely to suffer a stroke, and some research suggests that risks to non-smokers may be even greater than this estimate.

Passive smoking is especially risky for children and babies and can cause low birth weight babies, sudden infant death syndrome (SIDS), bronchitis, pneumonia, and middle ear infections.

Do treasure your life and the people around you.
Your health is what you introduce, how you maintain it.
So make your decision wisely.

Reference:

http://jama.ama-assn.org/cgi/content/abstract/267/1/94

http://bmj.bmjjournals.com/cgi/reprint/bmj.38146.427188.55v1

http://monographs.iarc.fr/htdocs/monographs/vol83/02-involuntary.html

http://www.mydr.com.au/addictions/smoking-what-are-the-effects

http://www.quit-smoking-stop.com

http://www.succezz.com/Health/Women/Pregnancy-Effects-of-Smoking.html

http://www.who.int/inf-pr-1998/en/pr98-29.html

http://ezinearticles.com/?Smoking-Relieves-Stress&id=763856

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tobacco_smoking

FUCK OFF!

2009-03-30T09:14:00.002+08:00

i'm fucking pissed with everything!!
not sure why but yes!!
any teeny weeny things is just getting up on my nerves
fuck my emotions, fuck the roller coaster mood swings, fuck the fact that life is fucking unfair.
my life is so fucked up!!!

Spree

2009-03-17T08:42:00.005+08:00

Hey blog readers,
I am currently organising a pre-order spree.
I'm sure this will be a great deal for you babes. :)
Laneige facial products are at least 10% off retail prices and I'm bringing in Etude House Facial Products whereby they are one of the leading brands in Korea.
So do join the spree for great bargains. :P

Spree for Laneige Facial Products
Spree for Etude House Facial Products
Spree for FaceShop

Blogs of WAR

2009-03-11T14:28:00.003+08:00

Realised that there are more and more war of words shooting around.
Do you have a need to do that?
I mean, from being friends to somewhat enermies?
Are women that petty? -shrugs-
In the first place, it's not as though this person that you are condemning had slept with your boyfriend or hubby right?
Personal attacks, not able to confront face to face and yada yada..
Does these actions mean that you are a coward?
A coward who fear of confrontation?
I shan't poke my nose into this trival, so have some thoughts and thrash things out if possible.

P/S: Just my point of view

Kaiho Sushi

2009-03-11T10:10:00.007+08:00

Bear and I went there for dinner and we both love it so much. I gave the chef a budget of $80 each and he came out with the below mentioned dishes.
Appetiser: Duo Miao and Kai Lan
Sashimi: Flying Fish, Salmon, Fatty Tuna, Red Tuna, White Fish, Ebi and Hamachi
Soup: Teapot Soup
Blow Torched Sushi: Dun really know the name of the fish but it taste darn delicious
Sushi: Hotate, Salmon, White Fish and Tuna
Grill: Flying Fish (The sauce is simply delicious. There's loads of bones so be careful when consuming)
Dessert: Green Tea Ice-cream with Red Bean Topping and Lemon Ice cream
Photos are extracted from his website, http://www.bernardtang.com/.

It's a dinner place worth going back again. slurps.
Will bring my mum there for her favourite sashimi. :)

Mr Brown Show

2009-03-10T08:58:00.001+08:00

Happy Happy Happy

2009-03-09T10:47:00.005+08:00

1st of all, I've completed all my driving lessons.
woohoo~
this means that i'm able to book for my prac test but to my dismay, the system sucks and the dates are fully booked.
anyway, will have to go down to ssdc to check on the dates all over again

2nd, i went for a morning walk and fishing on Saturday.
Had loads of fun with those peeps and I caught the most number of fish.
GIRL POWER!!
Here's the fish and prawns(quite some time ago) that we caught and mum taught me how to steam it. DROOLS!

3rd, it is our monthsary today. :D
have been tgt for 19mths and hoping for many more to come.

Do Female Execs Lack Vision?

2009-03-03T13:46:00.002+08:00

Do Female Execs Lack Vision?
What say you??

Fishing

2009-03-02T11:40:00.004+08:00

Went fishing finally =)
I insisted that Bear should bring me fishing since I miss fishing so damn much.
Though I know it is a hassle to bring me there as the place is super inaccessible and we have to walk on rocks just to get there.
Then, it started raining and ruined my highly spirited self (for that once only).
Bear gave me his poncho and was totally drenched, and I was so touched by what he did for me, all wet and cold.
Seriously, I'm really proud to have a boyfriend like him.
One that will always control his temper and very patient with me. :)
The one that shower me with love without fail and try to reason out with me whenever I'm wrong.
What more can I ask for??

Mind Reader

2009-02-28T00:11:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I'm not designed or made to read mind(s).
Why are people always having so much expectations?
Can't they just explain themselves?
Why must they always make things SO COMPLICATED?

I have little or almost no expectations from anyone.
In a way, I have given up on the hope of my expectations being fulfilled by others.
Thus, I'm working hard for what I want.
Perhaps, not working as hard as I'm supposed to but I'm still trying to.

Daily Travel

2009-02-25T14:34:00.003+08:00

Been taking public transport these days and of course, have found the most convenient (as in not much standing is needed) way to get around.

Boarded a train down to Potong Pasir last evening and saw this pregnant lady standing in front of the taken priority seat, yet no one offered her a seat, especially the one sitting on it.
Was she too engross in reading her book thus didn't notice or just too reluctant to give up the seat to someone who needed it more?
There are just too many this kinda people around, pretending to sleep, trying to look elsewhere and yada yada.
Worst of all, some can even stare at them as though they are some alien or whatsoever.

Didn't Teachers in school teach basic manners?
I remembered myself learning such morals in Primary School and Secondary School but why is it that no one or very few people practice these acts?
Have they forgotten all these or are they simply too lazy?

Myself, I believe in Karma.
I believe that if one does good, there will definitely be a repayment but in what form?
Who knows?!
I personally find that bringing smiles to people is really fulfilling though what was done is nothing great.
So I think it's really good if one can do just at least one good deed a month? (Every little actions counts)

Blood Donation Drive

2009-02-24T16:34:00.002+08:00

Once again, I went for a blood donation.
Since its so near office, might as well rite?
This time the number of staff was much lesser compared to before and therefore, waiting time is so much longer.
As usual, I felt damn good after donating but till now the part that they drew blood from is bruised.
Never had this happened, really puzzled.

Brought Ody to Marina Barrage on Sun and then to UPet for a swim.
I know Ody hates swimming but Zaedy simply loves it.
They looked totally adorable when swimming!!! <3
Will bring them there again and I'll swim tgt with them.. Wee!!
It's time to bring them to the BEACH!!

When I see you...

2009-02-18T14:56:00.001+08:00

I run out of words to say...

Ody

2009-02-13T10:53:00.002+08:00

Ody wasn't feeling well the whole week. Sent him to the vet and he's feeling so much better now. Seriously, what I can't stand is that people are asking,"Why is there nothing wrong with Zaedy?" In addition, they commented,"This is so STUPID!!" I tried to explain but they just don't get it. FORGEt IT!! I deem you people as IGNORANT. TOTALLY PISSED!!

Anyway, Ody has very sensitive digestive system. He'll poo soft stools whenever he eats food that he's not supposed to. And I ever witnessed that he LS within 3 mins after eating kibbles. No point ranting here when it had past. As long as Ody is fine.

I NEED A NEW PHONE

2009-02-09T10:58:00.000+08:00

I have to change to a new set of phone ASAP!
The side of my phone actually chipped off and is now left dangling.
In addition, the chipped piece is affecting the sliding of my phone..
It just get stuck!! argh!!

Furthermore, there are just too many things that I have to get.
Need to get a camera cos I lost it.
Feel so handicapped without a camera.

Weekends III

2009-02-09T10:31:00.004+08:00

BBQ with the SGNorth peeps ->Mahjong till 4->Interrupted sleep at 730 by the boys->Grooming session for the poochies->Tour around Changi->Found a new fishing site

Thanks Ade and Vic for the ride. Really enjoyed the road trip. My first time seeing so many hermit crabs and they are really HUGE!! Definitely not those, ha ha crabs, you see selling in shopping centres.

Lastly, to Bear, Happy 18 Monthsary!!
Didn't manage to make a delicious cheesecake but I'll try to make it better the next time round ya?
I'm actually proud of my first attempt because of the look but not the taste. heez

Zaedy

2009-01-12T11:29:00.003+08:00

La adopted a new dog..
He's a JRT X Poodle..
Uber CUTE!!
Really manja (sticky)..
Go to http://woofchronicle.blogspot.com/ to view his updates..
:)

I was very surprised by Bear's actions.
Bear was so patient with Zaedy in hand feeding him.
We never have this problem with Ody cos he gobble his food down in seconds.

Please inform me if anyone is gonna give up a Husky. :)

New Year Woes

2009-01-05T09:04:00.003+08:00

1st day of work for the year.. argh!!
Had a real bad time over the new year week.
I LOST MY CAMERA!!
Fucking sickening lah!!
I put it in my pouch, all zipped up but it still went missing..
All the photos of my countdown, the video that I took.. :(
Whatever, cannot be helped anyway.
It totally nowhere to be located!!
The worst thing is that I just told Bear that I wanna get a DSLR and it went running away from me forever!!

Bear had a tough start too.
This Fucker actually did really mean things to Bear!!
We made a report and the fucking Police lose the very important document to the case!!
WHAT THE FUCK ARE THE POLICE ON DUTY THAT DAY DOING?
In any case, I'm going to make you guys responsible for the lost if that fucker cannot be charged.

Clumsy

2008-12-22T01:25:00.005+08:00

Have you ever got that clumsy till you close the car door that tight till you remember that you left you fingers out there? I've been like that!! It is fucking painful alright. At first I could not even move a teeny weeny bit of my fingers till some time later. I hurts still now alright?!! Besides this, I was being laughed at and some jokes to make me feel better. Thanks so much for that. Of course, there was some where in between whereby pacifying helped to ease some pain.

Anyway, this is definitely not the first time I have encountered. When I was a kid, I always got my fingers caught between the lift doors (when it slide open, my fingers are always there without fail). The worse thing to it is that I stayed at the ground floor then. Next, is the gate or doors of my house. My fingers still get caught till now. At this age, I think none should have these self-inflicted accidents as one would have been aware of these. It is just me the clumsy one.

Friends

2008-12-11T18:15:00.004+08:00

Seriously, who are my friends? Friends are supposed to be there whenever you need them and yada yada. To those who are reading this post, ask yourself this question, have you been there for me?

Take for an example, my dad's death followed by my grandfather's, about 3-4 mths apart.
Had anyone sent their condolences? Had anyone came down to the wake? Had anyone asked how am I coping with all these parting of my loved ones? Perhaps a only few did. I really think that my sisters have better friends compared to mine. In anyways, the least they have done was to be there whenever needed.

As for mine, I recall myself giving in more than receiving till I can no longer bother any further. I don't ask for any return but at least appreciate the fact that I'd all I can subtly. I remembered using the last penny I had to exchange for my pal's well-being during prayers. In addition, I prayed all night till now for her well-being. (I think I'm really very superstitious but when you are hoping for one more day, that's the only thing you would do) I don't wish to lose a friend and I know that she has loads of unaccomplished stuff. But in anyways, I was the last to know about her health status. bah.. Worth it or not?

I'm not one who knows how to express myself, neither do I know how to communicate. Think most of the time, people just think that I'm too superficial. Seriously, after blogging, I don't even think anyone would even text me to ask me about how my life had been. It might be that I've let you down but think about it, to err is human.

16th Monthsary

2008-12-10T15:30:00.003+08:00

We have been tgt for 16 mths.
16 mths of ups and downs till today.
Since the day we 1st met as frens, had dinner till today, its 510 days.
Though it might seems really long, to me, it seems only yesterday.

I brought Bear to Tampopo for dinner last evening.
As usual, I had complementary food from them. :)
Don't ask me why because I will not tell.
We enjoyed our food to bits.
Not to mention, it's by far the best Jap restaurant I've been to.

Looking back at all the months tgt, I remembered something really meaningful to us..
ODY.. One of my most memorable mthsary present.
He was given to me on 9th Oct 07, my 2nd mthsary gift.
Then, he was only abt 5 mths old.
The littlest puppy I've ever fall for.
Now, this lil boy has grown up to be a rascal that's loved by not only me and Bear but many others with his tiny pair of 'shimmering' eyes.

Thanks Bear for all the memories and I'm loving you more than anything..

Hearts Holis

2008-12-09T11:18:00.006+08:00

Went to MacRitchie with Bear and Ody despite the rain.
We totally enjoyed ourselves and esp Ody.
This fearless rascal wasn't afraid of those Monkeys.
He even wanted to give them a chase!! (faints)
Totally unimaginable if they were to end up in a fight. (there were so many of them)
Took pictures while walking.

Weekend

2008-12-01T12:11:00.003+08:00

my weekend was great!!
with Bear planning everything.
really appreciate it.

but Ody's was bad..
all he got was a BBQ on friday nite and the rest of the days was left at home. :(
and he showed me his displease by peeing on the floor in the morning..
argh!!
can't really blame him thou..
anyway, he wouldn't be locked at home this weekend as there is a gathering coming up.
:)

A Walk in the Garden

2008-11-24T11:32:00.006+08:00

Brought Ody to the Bontanic Garden with the help of Ade and spouse. :)
Met up with the usual peeps there and started our journey to the waterfall for a round of photo taking, then to an open field for a run..
Ody enjoyed himself so much that he is seriously running everywhere.
Here are some pics of the walk.

Smiley
Jester
Kena put on sit stay

Group Shot 1
Group Shot 2
Emma
Ody

Julius

Girls...

2008-11-20T08:41:00.003+08:00

Gotten this from some chain mails...

When a GIRL is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how
long you will be around.

When a GIRL answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all
fine.

When a GIRL stares at you she is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest .. she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL says ' I love you ' .. she means it.

When a GIRL says ' I miss you ' .... no one in this world can miss you more than
that.

Life only comes around once, make sure u spend it with the right person ....

Find a guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot.

who calls you back when you hang up on him.

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses
your forehead.

Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.

Who holds your hand in front of his friends.

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he
is to have you.

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

I think these are the minimum girls want from her guy but many a times, girls missed the above when they are so infatuated.
I was asked if I'm looking at marriage when I date my Bear.
What I can say is that, marriage is still very far away from me.
Its not that I'm still looking for the right one to come by but I think I'm still not perfect enough for anybody.
I'm still the stubborn lil girl who thinks that no matter what guys should be the one giving in to everything, with no regards of who is right.
I'm still the girl that is taking things for granted though being reminded umpteen times.
I'm still the girl who complains and wants more despite already having the best.
There are just too many things to patch in this relationship on my side, thus marriage?? Totally out of the question.

Despite all these, I'm really lucky to have my Bear giving me chances and time to perform the patch so that this r/s will be strong and allows no backdoor. Virus is needed to be quarantined and Trojan to be trashed out. (Pardon me for being too IT)
In my opinion, its up to both to make the r/s work. Accept whatever that comes with an open mind and work through them together. :) It may sound easy but I can tell you that it's not. Patience and loads of it is needed to be available before things can work out.

Happy Birthday Babes

2008-11-17T16:45:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Mum and Prissy.
Cooked both of them Yong Tau Fu Mee Sua early in the morning.
Yawns..

Headed to Expo for the Crocs sales but the queue was a killer. (favourite pastime of S'poreans)
Should have taken a picture of the queue.
All that walked out from the Hall was carrying at least 2 bags full of shoes.
It just tell how cheap those shoes were.

Trained to the Airport for Popeyes. Yummilicious.
La and Prissy each ate 3 biscuits together with their mains..
You can imagine how gluttony they are.

Then we took a bus down to Hougang to carry out what is expected and bought mum a bag for her marketing.
After this, trained down to Clarke Quay for dinner at Tampopo.
I must say that the food there is the BEST Japanese Cuisine in SG.
The ramen, sashimi and DESSERT are worth trying..
They'll never fail you in any aspect.

Of course we camwhored the whole time through other than having all the delicious temptations that no one can resist not digging in once its served. :P

Fly~

2008-11-17T10:01:00.004+08:00

Bear will be leaving on a jet plane this evening..
forever flying here and there..
sigh.
he's neither a steward nor pilot but flying almost every month.
hate this!!
yes, i'm complaining..